You are viewing mortisnightmare

Wed, Nov. 14th, 2007, 06:09 pm

I didn't want to do this, but this journal is now friends-only. Leave a comment if you think I should add you.

Edit: To clarify this, people already on my friends list aren't going anywhere. I've just decided to protect myself from internet trolls who apparently feel that by getting an education and chasing my dreams, I'm making the world a much worse place and contributing to school shootings. And who threaten to go after the people I care about. So yeah, friends only.

Wed, Nov. 14th, 2007, 04:59 pm

Alright, enough is enough. To the anonymous commenter, I turned off anonymous comments because this is getting ridiculous. If you want to harass me, fine. But you're damned well going to put your name on it. If you're such a strong, wise, all-knowing person, you should be willing to expose yourself to the same that you're dishing out.

Tue, Nov. 13th, 2007, 11:40 am

I want more. I even know what that 'more' is, but I can't have it yet. So, I'm waiting. Just... waiting. It's not a good feeling. And it's hurting my performance. Which is why today is:

Mental Health Day!

Ok, only sort of as the plan is to read 28 legal cases and outline my paper so I can go see my professor and get some feedback before I write it. But, not being in class should allow me to think, rather than just exist. At least, that's my hope. I need to, as Scott put it, find other ways of handling my stress. Ways that neither require something I can't have all the time, nor are vastly time consuming. So, I need to poke about in my head for a bit. And I think I need to figure out where I put my needle point. Maybe I'll clean my room today, it certainly needs it.

Just sort of floating, and I need to stop that and get back to being real when I'm not happy, as well as when I am.